Reflections

Dream... Everyone has a dream of what they want to be. A question that I have not asked myself before. What's my dream? To be a photographer? A chess master? Or just the usual office guy? I'm the kind of guy whom once put in the effort,will be able to excel in it, but I'm just too lazy and too afraid to do so...

Time is cruel, once you missed the crucial moment, it won't come back again. I have many regrets in my life, and I have missed a lot of moment that I can excel in and all these can only be hidden as regrets in the deepest part in my heart. Often, I asked myself, what can I do? Which area am I best in? Will I be able t do it well? Why don't I give it up? I have wasted so much time thinking about these things instead of even making the effort of trying. How I wish I could turn back time but that's impossible.

Passion... Once my life had been filled with lots of passion on the things that I wanted to learn, Guitar, Japanese language, chess, photography and many many more.

Now, only now... that I started to move forward. I started to move forward and put my heart in the things that I want to do, started to excel in my studies and thank God that I have gotten the Top Student Award. It may seems like a small thing for others, but this award is very important to me. It gives me the confidence to move on, to continue to put in my best efforts in things I do. It's telling me, "If you like it, do it and be the best!".

Recently, I have taken a liking to Korean language and this time, I have decided to learn from my past mistake of giving up halfway. This time, I'm going to go all the way to master it. If I want to learn korean, I should go all the way.

I have been watching a lot of korean dramas recently, and these gave me a lot of emotional feel about love. What is LOVE if it doesn't make you excited when you see that special person.
What is LOVE if it doesn't make your heart ache when you don't get to see that person.
I have found that love 6 years ago even though I wasn't sure about it at the beginning. What attracts me about her in the first place? I couldn't answer that until recently. It was that cheerful face of her that moved me, the emotional her that touched me. She makes me feel loved and refused to give up on me. To her, I'm her world. To me, she's my life... I love you, Denise...

Denise 시 사랑해.....

Sunday Cell Outing & the Terror that awaits~

Sunday came and went as quickly as it is, fun was Sunday as it's the First Time of 6 members of my cell (SP, Sandy, Austin, Bryan, Adeline, Xue Ting) to play rollerblade at East Coast Park... I was the only one there who knows how to blade, so it has fallen under my task to teach 6 of them together alone... Man, it was tough, but it was fun and seeing them able to maintain their balance without any help at the end of the 2hrs rental certainly pays off...

Had a bit of fellowship with Linda and his bf after that at Mac and they are kind enough to send some of us to Marsiling MRT while they drive to Malaysia? Wow~ Every week there is their standard routine... Hats off them, seriously...

Fun day was over and now terror came when I go back to work on Monday. All my experienced staffs are out of action at One Raffles Quay Mailroom and I had to go over early in the morning to teach the 2 new support staffs (Ladies..) some basic tasks that they have to do. Had to rush back to Suntec to clear off my outstanding desk jobs as well.. . The whole day was a rush against time... so much things to do, yet so little time and I have only 2 hands & 1 brain... Was totally stressed out~

Office hours are over and finally it's time to meet Dear to go Little India for dinner and to do her Hannah... Gosh~ Haven't been there since primary school? Can't really stand the strong, overwhelming odor there... but for the sake of Dear, I just have to endure.... Food was nice, and had a great time there... So grateful that I was able to relax myself with Dear after the tremendous stress I had at work who brought me down on my kneels a few times...

Had the opportunity to try out Circle Line for the first time as well to Bishan... Pray that the rest of the week will breeze thru quickly and smoothly...

Overstressed!

Recent weeks has been very stressful for me during work… The amount of things to do just keeps on piling up & the tremendous pressure keeps on increasing and increasing. Have been trying my best to finish every tasks well, when the rest are resting, I’m working, when the rest are having lunch, I’m working, when the rest have knocked off, I’m still working…

Things will have gone well if not for the comments of one of my staffs who backstabbed me when I’m not around. He was saying that I’m always so FREE, every time sitting at my desk doing nothing? Hello? Is he blind? Has he not eyes to see, not ears to hear? In the same day, another staff of mine who was recommended by the MD showed attitude and disrespect to me which pissed me real bad. Are the things I do not appreciated? Are the efforts I made not enough? Everyone’s been stressing me, my boss, clients, and now even my own staffs… My morale was really down and I hide in the store to pray and cry, yes, I do shed tears… I don’t really feel like going back to work anymore.

Thus come Sat where I bring a heavy heart to Cell & service… Had quite a relieve of the burden during cell, thanks to my wonderful members & leader & also the presence of God. Service was the breakthrough for me, Pastor Kong actually preach about Job, where he suffered tremendously and still praise and give thanks to God. In the midst of it, he gained the capacity to endure for the greater goods of God’s plans… It was like WOW! God is trying to tell me something which I neglected even thought I have heard it many times before… Praise God! I went down for the altar call and there, my heart was broken & refill with God’s holy presence, strength and comfort…

Job 23:10 – “But He knows the way that I take: When He has tested me, I shall come forth as gold.”

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Fruitful Week

Went for Church-wide BS this Friday, the sermon was so good that it makes me forget all my tiredness from work and felt so energetic! So looking forward to the next Session, what a pity that I missed the first one... T_T

Missed Zone PM today because I need to refresh my weary body with more sleep. Woke up at 11.30am? Helped my uncle rip songs to his phone after that and went Jean Yip at Causeway Point to cut hair. Requested for my usual Hairstylist and he didn't disappoint me as he has styled my hair handsomely. Rushed home right after that and wore my new, first ever Pink T-Shirt today with black jeans and white shoes. Oh gosh, I looked good... Hmm... Guess being young pays off? LOL~ 

Today's service was great as well with guest speaker Mary-Alice Isleib preaching about how important Prayers are in our Christian Life... Learnt a lot these 2 days. I agree with Ming Yao that now is the time for the New S33 to rise up in Christ, what's past has passed, we should move forward and work towards the future that God has in plan for our cell.

We fellowship at Bedok today and had dinner there... Crowded as usual but we managed to secure 2 tables side by side, thank God? Food was good, well, except for my Wantan Mee which is tasteless... Managed to watch Ong Bak 3 Live after food which is my first time! Haha, confused? Well, it's just a mental disordered guy fighting with thin air in Muay Thai in the hawker which is quite near to us. 

All good times will always come to an end, finally it's time to go home and we took quite a few pictures in the train.. Haha, boy, that was fun. Life's never boring with my cell and with God. Time to sleep, tata~

Fulfilling Day~

Today started with a good spirit where I don't really feel that tired compared
to last few weeks. Job at work was rather smooth flowing. Had a heavy lunch
with my boss and one of my colleagues at KFC. We ordered meals with the
coupons that was meant for 4 ppl. However, we have only 3. So I'm the 4th
person too.. Hee... Went gym for some workout with Dear at Suntec. I'm so
happy that I managed to break my previous running record. Last I ran was
2.66km, now I managed to run 2.90km. Woo~ So excited for the next new
record I will break. ^_^

Lesson to be learnt, to be more successful in life, you will have to keep on
breaking new records and believe you can reach even higher in your next
results... Oh well, I guess it came with a side effect as well, because.... I can't
MOVE MY HANDS NOW! Have to ask my bro to help me take out my shirt
when I reached home.. Haha... Shh... That's supposed to be confidential,
so... Shh...

Gosh~ I guess I'm kinda addicted to blogging nowadays... Haiz...

No! Don't Stab my back pls~

My UBS boss treat me for lunch at Swiss Culture. Every time treat me, she's so good to me... Hee~ I'm blessed... Ate 3 Set  Salmon steak course. Pretty nice though, but the price is a bit costly... Happened to take a glance at the menu and every set is like 30 plus? Good relaxation after struggling whole morning with the troublesome Invoices I need to tally and bill.

I have a few spiritual attacks recently, one yesterday, and two today. As you all know, I have been newly transferred to Corporate Admin Services in UBS and at the same time, taking the role of Mailroom Team Leader as well. 2 roles at a time, tough... The sad thing was, my friend told me yesterday that someone from my mailroom team backstab me, saying I so stupid go work for UBS. I was like, hello? Can I say no when my manager ask me whether I'm able to take the role? It was kinda disappointing to say things like that coming from your own team. 

Today, I had another shock with what my supervisor asked me. Because of my new role in UBS, I don't have much time to be in the mailroom. She asked me, "Actually you HAVE time to come back mailroom one, right? How come last time Rahman is so free? Now you take over from him and you seems so busy?". This was a big stab on my heart, I put 120% on my work and now she's saying that I'm acting busy on purpose? I bet she didn't realise Rahman's been working in UBS for 25 years and he can do his things with 2 eyes closed and get it done within the hour? Which she didn't even know that he's not doing his job well for the past 25 years because I found a lot of errors and loopholes in his records and work?

At night, after the relaxed chit chat with my old colleague from ORQ, I discovered that one colleague from my previous mailroom team at ORQ said I don't deserve the "Best Employee Award". He says I'm always on leave, MC and criticize my way of working... I'm pretty shaken by all these remarks... Each hit was like hammering on my confidence and faith. By all these jealous ppl who will only criticize just because they are not the one at the top. I prayed and prayed, and I thank God for giving me this, "forgive & forget" attitude that I'm able to get over it before the night ends. Jiayou wor, I can do it!

Time to take a bath and make myself "clean" again... ^_^

Hot Weather Burned a Hole in my Pocket!

Woke up on a hot and humid day preparing to take a nice bath, change up and get ready to go out with my Dear. Not only the weather is irritating me, even the bus is.... waited like almost 30 mins for bus 969? On a hot day where I'm sweating even under the shade? Luckily the journey to Tampines was short enough to end my torture...

Had lunch with Dear at BBQ Chicken and the food there wasn't too bad at all, although a little bit costly. Shopping on weekends at Tampines makes you wonder why are you even here at all? There's so many ppl there, everywhere you turn, you can only move inches before you hit someone. We custom-made a pair of rings for our 2 years Anniversary which is coming REAL soon~ After the main task for the day was done, we went SHOPPING! I bought a pair of pants, a belt and 2 tees for only 70 bucks. Dear also bought a few tees and we have to drag ourselves out of the shop before our wallets really go empty... Haha~

After shopping, we had Ice-cream at Mac and we parted ways soon. Dear has to go for her Grandma's Birthday Celebration and I went back home to rest... Lastly, here I am, sitting in front of the computer trying typing this little journey of my interesting and Heartbroken day(BROKE LE!).... Lol~

Stay tune to my next blog... Ciao~

A time of Close Encounter with God

Today's cell group was good. So many unhappy things happened and I felt God's presence telling me that this is the time for me to come out from my hiding place and start to do what He has in plan for me. Stop hiding behind the screen and come out to bring everyone together, he said. Well, not all things that happened are unhappy events. I was awarded the "Best Employee Award of the Year" aka "Star Award" by my company last week. A total surprise for me! God is telling me, "Son, where no one seems to care, I have seen your efforts in the marketplace, and this is what you deserved."

Service was definitely GREAT! So many have fallen under the deliverance of God thru Rev Mike Connell. When the alter call came, surprisingly my mind was clear and felt very peaceful. Only the pain and hurt I saw on those who fell hurts me, but I know they will be healed after this, so I began to smile. I have a good brother, a good girlfriend, a good family, a good cell group and a good God. What more can I asked for?

For those who left, I know in my heart, that one day, they will be back and reunited with God. ^_^
Looking forward to sunday where I can meet my Dear out for lunch and SHOPPING! Haha~ Oh, did I miss out the movie, X-men which I watched with my bro was good? So many things to enjoy in life, no time to think of unhappy things la... hmm... time for some supper... hungry... See ya, folks!